Sunday, April 7, 2013

Obey God by obeying your heart

Scripture I'm Reflecton On:  John 9:6-7
     "Then he spit on the ground, made mud with the saliva, and spread the mud over the blind man's eyes.  He told him, 'Go wash yourself in the pool of Siloam.'  So the man went and washed and came back seeing"

Reflection:
Anyone that knows me can attest to the fact I have a tendency to notice and key in on small things, like noticing something random in the corner of a picture or remebering something completely random and inconsequential months later.  This verse is another time I find myself doing that..

 I find myself wondering, what is the point of the whole mud thing?  Clearly its in the Bible for a reason.  Clearly Jesus did it this way for a reason.  John just didn't make this up to enhance the story, this isn't a Hollywood movie script.  Jesus had the power to bring the man's vision back with the snap of a finger.  Surely the act of putting the mud on his eyes wasn't the "cure."  So what was the point?

I did a quick google search just to see what others had said.  A lot of different reasons are mentioned, for instance...using the Earth could certainly be intentionally symbolic to remind us of our creator's power.  I think there is more here than just "symbolism" though.  The message I take away from this act by Jesus is of a different message.  I think this is a reminder for us to have faith and obey God, even on little things or things that do not make sense to us.  The blind man in this case didn't ask any questions, he didn't question Jesus' method.  He simply showed faith and followed Jesus commands, and he regained his sight.  Compare this with other stories in the Bible.  Saul disobeyed God's word when he kept a King alive along with some livestock.  Result = He ended up losing the throne.  Namaan became angry when Elisha commanded that he had to wash himself in the Jordan River to cure his leprocy, and initially refused to do so.  Result = No cure.

One of the coolest things I found, and continue to find out as my faith grows, is how many times God gives us an order, or 'advice' on a regular, daily basis.  We can usually hear Him when we are considering something big, and usually obey what He puts on our heart in these situations.  But what about during the small day to day things?  Ever been watching a YouTube video and just knew that it was something you shouldn't be watching?  Ever started to do something and got a strong feeling that you needed to stop and do something else?  These "I Knows".....I know I should do this, I know I shouldn't do this, I know going out with this person is a bad idea, I know going for a walk down that street isn't going to be good, I know I need to call my mom tonight....I firmly believe is God putting a command on our heart, and asking us to do something in faith.

It's easy to "reason" our way out of God's commands when it comes to small things he puts on our heart.  "I can carry this coffee and orange juice to my car along with all my books, I'll be careful"...next thing you know your shirt is ruined.  "I'm sure going out with these guys to the bar will be fine"...next thing you know youre stuck in a situation where you can't think of anything but trying to go home.  These things happen everyday in our lives.  Sometimes you just feel uneasy about someone.  Sometimes you just feel like you need to leave a situation.  Sometimes you feel like you should go talk to that person in the corner.  Sometimes you just know it's time to call your family or a close friend.  I guarantee if you reflect on all the times you went against "that 'I Know' feeling" you had in your heart, it always turned out to be a wrong decision.  That's certainly the case in my life, and I imagine its the case for everyone.

Final Thought:
It may seem silly to write a devotion on such "small things."  But is it really?  Think about these small things.  These are what cause most people the most problems in their life.  How many times have you stressed over something that was "small" in the grand scheme of things, because you were fighting the feeling you had on your heart?  How many times have you made yourself worry about something even though God clearly has put the answer on your heart?    

We have to fight against confusing these "small things" with "insignificant things."  The "small things" are the ones that will build up on us.  When we make a habit out of fighting what God puts on our heart in terms of small day-to-day decisions, then eventually we will turn this in to fighting God's commands on bigger decisions.

Have faith in what God puts on your heart.  It's not always going to make sense, especially if your someone like me who needs to hear a logical reason behind everything.  But I'm slowly learning through experience that just having question-less faith is the way to go.  Putting mud on a blind man's eyes makes no sense at all.  But the result...is certainly one that is glorious.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Managing your Guilt

Scripture I'm Reflecting On:
     "How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart?
          Cleanse me from these hidden faults"

Reflection:
Do you ever wonder if something you just did was a "sin".  Or maybe just wrong, or not pleasing to God.  I do this all the time.  Most of the time its something little that I never even thought about at the time I did it.  Getting frustrated driving in rush hour.  Doing something subtle to avoid someone or some situation.  Laughing at questionably immoral humor.  Engaging in certain conversations.  I often find myself reflecting after the fact, and feeling guilty about something I've done and wondering if it was displeasing to God.

As David reflects in this verse, we all have hidden faults, which is probably a reason we cannot live a life completely free of sin, no matter how hard we try.  No matter how pure we set out to be, none of us can ever claim we have never had a selfish thought, admired someone we found attractive, skipped an opportunity to thank or worship God, or given an uninspired effort in performing a task.  Acknowledging these moments, and even feeling a little guilt, I think is a good thing, as it keeps us turning to God and keeping a close relationship.  But letting guilt take over our minds if the work of the enemy, and will only pull us away from God.

If there's one thing to take away from the Bible, its how amazing and forgiving God is towards our fautls.  Don't lose faith in that.  God forgives all of our faults, from the smallest bad attitude moment, to the seemingly unforgiveable sin, as long as we turn to him and ask for this.  It's easy to skip a prayer time because you think God is mad with you, or doesnt want to hear from you after something you did.  I've had this thought on more than one occasion.  But this is line of thinking is not written anywhere in the Bible, and there is no reason to even consider that is a possibility.  "We are the apples of God's eyes", and as long as we lift our sins up to him, He will continue to forgive and bless our faults and shortcomings.

At my lowest spiritual point, I remember telling God something along the lines of "if youre even up there, stay out of my life as you certainly arent doing me any favors."  And that is a rated G version.  It took me a long.....long................long time, even after restoring my faith to where it is now, to realize and understand that God would forgive me as long as I asked and believes, even after such a horrible comment.  Just as nothing is too big for God to accomplish, equally so, there is nothing too big for God to forgive.

Final Thought:
I am someone who over-analyzes everything, and will find something to be guilty about even when nothing is there.  This is particularly true when hanging out with those I care about, I  have a tendency to always think I did something wrong.  Did I end the conversation correctly?  Was that joke in bad taste (or maybe just dumb)?  Was I friendly?  Should I have offered to buy a coffee?  These mostly irrational "guilty" questions I have occasionly creep their way into my prayer life as well, and when they do, I find myself pulled away from reading the Bible and engulfed with worry.

The Bible has always been my answer to these problems, and can be your answer if you find yourself feeling guilty, or wondering if you displeased God.  Without fail, everytime I have truly and fully given my worry to the Lord, things have worked out for the best.  I  have no doubt, that when we do this, the result will always be the same.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Keep Your Eyes on the Real Reward

Scripture I'm Reflecting on:  Psalm 10:4-5
     "The wicked are too proud to seek God.
           They seem to think that God is dead.
     Yet they succeed in everything they do."

Reflection:
I could have chosen any of the verses from Psalm 10 for this reflection, as I find this Psalm very refreshing; while also having a good message.  I find myself liking this Psalm because it is a list of thoughts that I can really relate too.  While the "wicked" this author (likely David) faced was certainly at a level higher than I have ever experienced or imagined, I do find myself having similar thoughts from time to time when I see certain things happening around me.

I'm sure most of us have had at least a quick thought like the ones in this verse (and entire Psalm) when we see someone "wicked" succeed.  Greed, selfishness, and a cut-throat attitude seem to be the way to the top in modern times, and you don't need to look far to find a person of no faith succeeding in big ways.  Many of the wealthiest people in the country have probably never even given God so much as a thank you for their fortunes.  Many of the people who have been blessed with gifts of great intelligence, athletic ability, or impeccable health never give a thought to be grateful for the blessings they were given.  A natural response, at least for me, is to wonder why these people are being rewarded?  Why is God allowing this to happen?

But these thoughts, after a little bit of reflection, are really just silly....and worrying about other people's success is just a waste of energy.  Why stress over why someone is wealthy, or why someone has a natural ability you do not have?  All of this is temporary.  Wealth lasts for a brief time.  Our physical or mental gifts will fade away some day.  Worrying about why someone has something we selfishly want is not only a waste of time, but also can have a tendency to pull us away from God.  The Bible promises that the wicked will be punished in due time.  That should be all the comfort we need to focus on our own faith, and live our lives in God's glory, regardless of the "material rewards" we are receiving.  We can all think of times in our lives when God has taken care of us, and to think that he has stopped or forgotten us because we see god-less people around us succeeding is exactly the mindset Satan loves to see.

Final Thought:
There's too many things in our lives to be thankful about to worry and wonder whether other people's success is justified.  Everyone has different beliefs on how much God inserts himself in our daily lives.  I tend to think God has a plan for us, and gives us the resources and guidance to carry out that plan, without actually carrying it out for us.  It's hard to say what influence God has over someones successes, say someone who has obtained great wealth, who does not acknowledge God.  Maybe God still guides them to this wealth for a reason.  Maybe it just happens.  But we do know that God doesn't make any promises of riches and rewards for Christians, and the opposite for non-believers.  If that were the case, everyone would "believe."  Everyone would have "faith", but this faith for many would be in the rewards, and not God's Word.

The real reward, the only one that matters, doesn't come in the form of temporary wealth or fame.  As long as we remember that, then we will realize there's no reason to worry about the successes we see those without faith obtaining.  We can obtain a peace and happiness through faith that the richest, wealthiest, most athletic person on earth could never dream of without God.  We are after an infinetly greater reward.  And we will receive it as long as we stay true to God's Word and message.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Remembering our History - March 7

Scripture I'm Reflecting On:  Esther 9:1
     "So on March 7 the two decrees of the king were put into effect.  On that day, the enemeies of the Jews had hoped to overpower them, but quite the opposite happened.  It was the Jews who overpowered their enemies."

Reflection:
Posting something a little different this time, not really a reflection, but just paying tribute to one our great Bible stories on the anniversary of its most notable event.  March 7th isn't a date that many (if any) of us would think of as a day to remember, like Christmas, Passover, etc.  Maybe coincidentally, or maybe through grace, I actually just happened to read the story of Esther this morning in my chronolgical reading or I probably wouldn't  have remembered the date in the story at all.  It's easy to forget about the history in the Bible, particularly shorter stories like Esther, which is why I felt remembering this date in our history would make for a good reminder opportunity.

I'm sure everyone has read the story of Esther at some point, so I won't go through a book report style summary.  But I think it's one we should all consider giving a re-read for a truly inspirational story.  There are many great messages we can take from this story.  It offers a great inspirational story for women, with Esther basically saving an entire race of people.  There's a warning for us in the life of Haman, to not let our desire for approval and popularity drive us into immoral actions.  As we find ourselves obtaining more power in life, through promotions, parenthood, age, or occupation, this becomes especially more important to remember, as the temptations only grow as we obtain more power and wealth.

I think the best reflection on the story of Esther however, is just another example of how great and loving God is, and how he can bring any of us who are faithful to do amazing things.  Esther and Mordecai were ordinary people, maybe just like you and me.  They were part of a group of people that were far from the most beloved race of people in the time of this story, a group that was probably mocked and persecuted regularly under the reign of Persian kings.  Yet, they remained faithful to God.  And God repaid them in a great way.  An extraordinary way.  A divine way.  Esther became queen, with enough power to get King Xerxes to allow her to issue orders.  When you stop and just think about that for a second, you realize how remarkable that is, especially when you consider the time period that happened.  God also rewarded Mordecai's actions (stopping an assassination) and his faith, by guiding him to become the Prime Minister to the King.

Bottom Line:  Esther and Mordecai kept their faith in dark times.  They didn't live in fear.  And God made the impossible happen.  We need to remember this when we start feeling fear:  fear of an illness, fear of an interview, fear about a grade, fear about a loved one.  Throw away the fear and show your faith in God by believing he is going to turn it all around, maybe even make the impossible happen in your life.

Final Thought:
It's easy to read these Old Testament stories almost like were reading fiction.  I battle this thought in my own head all the time.  The times were so different.  The actions were so long ago.  But we should try to remember that this was how we got to where we are now.  These stories are why we have the Word.  These stories are reminders of real actual examples of God's greatness, of God's glory.  Remembering stories, like this one, are not only important to demonstrate our faith, but our a great reminder and inspiration to just how great we have it living under God's grace.    

Friday, March 1, 2013

Build your Foundation

Scripture I'm Reflecting on:  Isaiah 28:16
     "Therefore, this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
      Look!  I am placing a foundation stone in Jersusalem,
          a firm and tested stone.
      It is a precious cornerstone that is safe to build on.
          Whoever believes need never be shaken.

Reflection:
There are several passages that teach us to make our faith the foundation for our lives.  Psalm 118:22, Matthew 22:42, 1 Peter 2:8.  We are guaranteed security when we do this.  We are guaranteed happiness when we do this.  So why do we find ourselves forgetting this so often?

It's easy, especially in today's world, to find security in so many other things than the Word.  Some people find it through their wealth.  Some people find it through success in their job, their test scores, or on the sports field.  The problems with these "securities" are pretty obvious.  Those who rely on riches and fortunes for their security and happiness will never have enough.  They will always want more, and never find peace.  Those who rely on success will eventually run into failure, and then what?  Athletes age and lose their ability.  Top business executives eventually are pushed into retirement.  When this happens, and our faith has not been our rock...our "foundation"...then its clear that negative things will be close behind.

Most Christians understand the dangers that come with putting money and fame on the same pedastal as God.  But maybe what is more dangerous is when we put our security in someone else.  Putting our security in someone else is easy to do, and doesn't even seem logically wrong.  It's not wrong to rely on someone.  A family member.  Spouse.  Boyfriend/Girlfriend.  Even just a good friend.  Family and friends are a much stronger foundation than money and fame.  But they are not a stronger foundation than our faith in God.  There's only one foundation that won't break in the face of dark times and tragedy, and that is faith in Him.

So what's the ultimate danger preventing us from this foundation?  Us.  Our minds.  At least this is the danger that attacks me the most.  Bad day, no problem I can handle it.  "I'm tough".....  I don't need to pray for that, I can make it happen on my own......  I can figure out this problem, I'm a smart guy.  I let what I thought were my intelligent thoughts and logic talk me out of having faith in the Bible for many years of my life.  It's easier than many think to make yourself believe you can "out-think" the Bible, prove to yourself its not all real, or make yourself believe there's no logic in "prayer".  Science, big bang theory, evolution, on and on, there's plenty of well thought out and researched concepts that lure our mind away from having faith.  But as I found out, and anyone who puts themselves...their logic...or their preceived intelligence ahead of everything in their life will find, this does not lead to the "security" that we need in life.

Awareness of these dangers, I believe, is the key to keeping our faith as our foundation.  Where do you  turn when you feel vulnerable?  Staying in the Word on a regular basis will help us ensure that we are turning to God first.  Having that foundation, is the ONLY way to achieve all of the glory that God has planned for us.

Final Thought:
Don't misread this to say that there's anything wrong with the "dangers" I've listed.  Having reliable family and friends is one of the most important things to have in life.  But make sure you are surrounded with people who understand that your faith is your foundation.  Everytime I read an article, or some "expert" giving reasons for why divorce rates are skyrocketing, I laugh and cringe at the same time.  The answer is simple.  The number of people with faith as their foundation are rapidly decreasing.  Because of this the number of relationships formed with God as a foundation are decreasing.  What does that =?  Divorce rates up.  As easy as 1+1.

There's nothing wrong with money, career goals, or increasing your intelligence.  Earning a lot of money is not at all a bad thing...that is....as long as it doesn't pull you away from Him.  I know career success is a big part of my goals for the future.  But as I work towards this, I know I have to keep verses like this in mind to make sure foundation is solid.

Place your hopes and dreams in God, in Jesus, in the Word.  Once we have this foundation, the rest of our lives.....our career.....our relationships.....our happiness, will come together.

Friday, February 22, 2013

The argument you cannot win.....

Scripture I'm Reflecting on:  Isaiah 45:9
     "What sorrow awaits those who argue with their Creator.
          Does a clay pot argue with its maker?
          Does the clay dispute with the one who shapes it, saying,
     'Stop, you're doing it wrong!'
          Does the pot exclaim,
          'How clumsy can you be?'

Reflection:
This has quickly become one of my favorite verses.  A witty and humorous way to make a very simple yet powerful point.

I would doubt any of us can say we don't find ourselves arguing with God on rare occasion from time to time.  It might be in a subtle way of just questioning why something isn't going your way, or where the answer to a prayer is.  Or if you're like me you might actually find yourself arguining with God in prayer from time to time.  Regardless of when and how, I think after reflecting on it, and by reading this verse, we see how truly silly that is.

This verse doesn't just speak to our thoughts however.  Technically I think we are "arguing" with God anytime we resist what the Holy Spirit puts on our heart.  This past fall I accepted a position that after I interviewed for I knew it was something I wasn't called to take.  I even voiced this to a couple of close friends.  But I took it anyway, because it made sense to me.  It was a good internship in a position that I wanted some experience, and would also look great on my resume.  Since it didn't make sense to me, I took the position, despite the fact I knew so clearly that the Holy Spirit had put on my heart not too.  Long story short, I didn't enjoy the internship, and it was a virtual waste of a semester in that department.  This is a very minor instance of the "sorrow" this verse speaks of.

I continue to be surprised and amazed as I grow in my faith by how much the Holy Spirit will guide you if you allow it to happen.  I've let my logical thinking talk me out of following what's been put on my heart a few times.  It's always been a bad move.  Giving up control is hard, probably real hard if you're someone like me who spent most of their life withouth any real faith.  Once you give up control though, and follow Him no matter how illogical or irrational it may seem at the time, you will find happiness and success that you never could have obtained without Him.

Final Thought:
I was drawn back to this verse because right now I find myself battling a cold.  I used to take the word complain to new meaning everytime I was sick.  I would always think God was out to get me, because it always seemed to be at the worst possible times (as if there was ever a great time to be sick).  I now realize how ridiculous these complaints were.  I now realize how thankful I should be for the health I have, the fact that I'm rarely sick, the fact that a cold here and there is usually he only medical battles I have in a year.  There are soo many people that battle so far worse things than my puny cold, and its taken a verse like this to make me appreciate and be thankful for what God has provided me.

Arguing with God is not something anyone can win.  Besides the fact you can't win, it will also do nothing but hurt yourself...bring "sorrow" to try to do so.  There's always going to be a reason to question Him, to question his plan for you.  Many people my age are starting to question why they aren't married yet.  Some people wonder why they haven't found their dream job, why they don't have kids, etc etc etc.  The answer to these questions isn't all that complicated.  Give up control and let the Holy Spirit guide you.  Live in His glory, and things are going to work out.  This promise is prominent throughout the Bible.  Have faith that it will happen, and it will.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Degrees of Seperation

Scripture I'm Reflecting on:  Romans 8:35-37
     "Can anything ever seperate us from Christ's love?  Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitude, or in danger, or threatened with death? No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us."

Reflection:
I decided to post this verse not because it's one I have had an insightful thought or reflection about, but one in which I am struggling deeply with right now.  For some time now, I've felt that every step forward I've taken, I've been met with two steps backward.  Everytime I've felt like a certain prayer had been answered, it comes crashing back in my face.  This has marked a worse extension of this feeling.  I saw what I thought was a "step forward" to a prayer I've had for a while... that over the last day turned into not one or two steps backward, but twenty staircases worth of steps backward.

These steps backward have seperated me from Christ.  Sometimes for just a few minutes of frustration, sometimes for a day sadness, sometimes for even longer.  Currently, this backward fall has left me in a position where I can't even see the end.  I feel myself in a state of seperation now that seems to have potential longevity.  But how can this be?  Paul tells us that overwhelming victory is ours...is mine...through Christ.  If this is true though, where does my seperation come from?

This is an answer I will be dedicating a significant amount of time to finding for the forseeable future.  I know the answer is in this verse.  I know the answer is in the Word.  But I know with where my heart is right now, I'm really going to have to read and pray deeper than the plain language of the Bible to find peace.

The message I guess I hope this passes along is a reminder that troubles, hardships, and our low points in life are not things meant to seperate us from God.  In fact, its probably meant to be the opposite of that.  God doesn't present challenges in our lives to seperate us from Him.  God doesn't lose any love for us during our bad days.  And these hardships do not prevent us from "victory".  They don't prevent us from God's plan.  I lose sight of this very frequently, and the result of losing sight of this is seperation, and a heart thats not at peace.

Final Thought:
My complaints, my faith questioning, over the last 24 hours, has been constant and frequent.  I felt justified in my complaints.  I feel what is happening to me is undeserved, and unfair.

A few hours ago, I received news that a family friend, and someone that helped me out during my college years, fell down his steps and is now in a coma.  Here I am complaining about falling down "emotional" steps, saying "why me".  The reality of how pathetic my complaints were after hearing this news has hit me quite hard.

Be thankful for all of the greatness in your life.  The fact that you are reading this means you are blessed with resources that 90% of the world population does not have.  I am sad that it took news like this for me to realize that my life is still so blessed despite my comparitvely tiny emotional hardships.  Don't let it take someone's misfortunes to realize how blessed you are.  Say prayers of thanks every chance you get.  And say prayers for those around you that they receive all the blessings that you have.